Netzach Catchall

[honkinbigteeth]

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[honkinbigteeth]

[...oh.]

You did...? You were trying to help us?

[abstractart]

Gerard had some stuff on the back of his head, when I checked him.

[which he just

wiped off and 'forgot' to mention]

[honkinbigteeth]

[we did see that and were like "wow what a bro." she's surprised, though.]

...Thank you. Why?

[abstractart]

...didn't wanna see anything happen to you guys.

[a slight shrug, there.]

[honkinbigteeth]

Oh.

[she's honestly really touched by this.]

Thanks, Netzach.

[abstractart]

Yeah. Sorry it didn't do much in the end, but...

-it'll be okay. One way or another. It doesn't help me all that much to think it, if I'm honest, but I think we have to try and hold on to something like that anyway.

['try' is like. very definitely the operative word here.]

[honkinbigteeth]

No, it - I -

[she swallows.]

I don't want you to think we were just trying to manipulate you guys or something. We didn't even think he was injured or whatever. He just like - it really is hard for him, and horrible. And he's not a frog. And he's not dragging down our team. No one can ever, ever say that about him.

So I just - it means a lot that you cared about him.

[abstractart]

I know you guys weren't. Even if-- even if Nahri was right, this is the kind of thing we've been forced into doing.

...he's always seemed like a good guy, to me. I care about that more than what we've done here.

[honkinbigteeth]

He is a good guy. The best guy. And Haru, too.

[abstractart]

Yeah. You are too, you know that, right?

[honkinbigteeth]

[lol.]

I don't really know. But I'm trying.

[abstractart]

[just kind of. pulling his remaining leg up to his chest, arms wrapped around it.]

...I still remember the first time people came back all fucked up, you know? And I'm not gonna lie, I didn't even think about-- other people being able to heal, because we couldn't, and I had no idea what to do about any of it besides... wait. But you got the people who were already there and not acting on it to do something about it.

That's what I think of, when it comes to you.

[honkinbigteeth]

[this is like the nicest thing anyone has ever said to her.]

...Oh. Thanks.

[abstractart]

Don't have to thank me for it.

[it's just true? it's just the truth. doesn't matter if they did it, she's still a good kid.]

[honkinbigteeth]

[she does, though. it's rare for someone to pay her a compliment that she actually takes to heart.]

I'm sorry about Zelda. I don't know why he would have picked her like that.

[abstractart]

...I don't, either. Or why he had to erase her the way he did. Using the sword like that...

I'm a little disappointed he didn't manage to live. I'd have liked an explanation.

[honkinbigteeth]

I know. I know how important it was.

[abstractart]

Him and Libby are the closest I've come to really being mad about what people decide to do here.

[honkinbigteeth]

...Yeah. I guess I feel like I don't want to be mad, because I've helped hurt people, too. I guess he probably didn't know how important that sword was to her. But still, it just doesn't make sense to me.

When Gerard said he wouldn't have hurt Zelda, it's like. Princesses are always being sacrificed for other people's plans that had nothing to do with them. It makes me feel terrible for her.

[abstractart]

Me too. I'm... not usually, because I know we're all forced into this anyway, and not many of us genuinely want to hurt people. It's just- some choices I can't agree with.

[he didn't say it should have been him because he wants to be erased, but it just... it shouldn't have been her. he and yuzuriha are used to this.]

Out of all three of us, deciding on her... I can't help being at least a little mad about that.