[she doesn't know what he means by that, but she knows what she means.]
I hate having to learn lessons. I hate my story. But I suppose - I am what I am, too, and for now I still exist to teach children what to be afraid of.
I don't believe that's what we have to be. I believe we can be something else. You may be a monster, but so am I, and I don't think that has to mean what everyone has decided it's supposed to mean.
...I don't hate you. But I knew from the start it would be safer for the people I want to protect if I killed you, and I will always regret staying my hand.
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Date: 2023-06-25 02:21 pm (UTC)rang's expression doesn't so much as flicker, though his gaze rests on her longer after her story, then he looks away]
If you had, then it would have turned out very differently. For both of you.
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Date: 2023-06-25 03:04 pm (UTC)[she doesn't know what he means by that, but she knows what she means.]
I hate having to learn lessons. I hate my story. But I suppose - I am what I am, too, and for now I still exist to teach children what to be afraid of.
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Date: 2023-06-25 03:13 pm (UTC)I've told so many stories of myself, that they've all become true in some ways. So whatever version people believe in will be their truth.
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Date: 2023-06-25 03:20 pm (UTC)...I don't hate you. But I knew from the start it would be safer for the people I want to protect if I killed you, and I will always regret staying my hand.
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Were you told by someone that you had to do it?
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Date: 2023-06-25 03:26 pm (UTC)I haven't told anyone else anything about what happened, and I don't think I will tonight.
If you really want to know, then ask Buzen and Matsui after tomorrow.
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Date: 2023-06-25 04:25 pm (UTC)[she can't make him, and no good will come of anything else she does.]
Goodbye, Rang Lee.