Alter Ego

[honkinbigteeth]

tbd

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[diluvian]

Not until tomorrow's Erasure is finished?

[honkinbigteeth]

I'll sleep before then. But if I sleep now, I won't be able to talk to them before.

[diluvian]

Them? BDSM?

[honkinbigteeth]

[she nods.]

Execution will be too late.

[diluvian]

Are you trying to ask them why?

[honkinbigteeth]

Maybe.

[she swallows, her throat tight.]

It doesn't really matter why. Reasons won't change what happened to Rin. Maybe I just hope I'll learn something that I hate less than what I know now.

[diluvian]

[ it's true. reasons won't bring rin back either. ]

Some of them won't make that easy.

[honkinbigteeth]

Maybe I'll learn something from that, too. You can't get through to everyone, in the end.

[she sighs.]

Lambda, what are you thinking? I know you aren't surprised, you're too smart.

[diluvian]

I wouldn't go that far. I convinced myself I didn't want the right answer before the night was over.

[ she doesn't usually like admitting to weakness like this, but she was surprised by what she felt when the result was revealed. ]

But it's something you deserved. Now that we know the team for certain, I'm sure who of them it is.

[honkinbigteeth]

...You didn't want the right answer?

[why?]

...Rang Lee.

[diluvian]

I wanted another team to be guilty.

[ even if she has no problems with people killing.

she tilts her head. ]

Is that something you believe? Or something he's led you to believe?

[honkinbigteeth]

You don't think so?

[diluvian]

[ she shrugs a little. ]

I think if Rang killed Rin, and I do think he would, it wouldn't have been like that.

[honkinbigteeth]

So you think it was Count D?

[she's just confused now...]

[diluvian]

[ she makes a sweeping gesture with her arm. yes, that's what she thinks. ]

You may form your own conclusions. I won't sway them. It's probably what the both of them want.

[honkinbigteeth]

I do think Rang Lee is the type to take the blame even if he didn't do it. But I also...think he's the type to become angry when he's forced to need someone too much.

Why did you want it to be another team? Are they your friends?

[diluvian]

He does seem to hate that connection, as much as he seemed to hate every other connection forced upon him this week.

[ she doesn't say that like it's a bad thing. ]

I wouldn't call any of them friends. There are simply types of people I prefer.

[honkinbigteeth]

I like that type of person, too. But I also liked Rin. And it feels like...you have to choose between them at some point.

[diluvian]

Mm. You will. We all will, especially once more people start trying to earn more points.

It's not easy to like everyone.

[honkinbigteeth]

At least not in a place like this.

[diluvian]

It's not set up for that kind of camaraderie, but if anyone manages it, they'll be both better and worse off for it.

[honkinbigteeth]

I can't see how they'll be better. They'll fall further and further behind.