Yeah. Sorry. [these damn pigs.] It's okay, you don't have to apologize.
[she doesn't know exactly what happened, but she can tell simon must have done something that made all of the adults very angry. it reminds her of a few different things. of all of the stories she knows where children are punished and taught a lesson for the crime of not following the rules made by adults who could never have comprehended the things they'd have to deal with. she's seen a memory a little like this before, and she says what she said then.]
...You were right. You were right to lie, and to run away. They didn't know what they were talking about and they couldn't keep you safe, so you were right.
[ somehow he's a little surprised by how firmly she says that, and it makes him wonder if she had to run away from something like that herself.
there's never been any doubt in his mind that running away was the right choice — almost certainly the only choice that would have let him live to see another year — so he's never needed anyone else's validation for it, but.
[more than anything, she's thinking of her friend, of pinocchio. sorry to compare him in my metatext to a magical puppet child, but it's the story of a little boy who was told by everyone that to be considered a real boy he had to be perfect and never tell a lie, and who was badly failed by the inadequacy of that black and white morality to prepare him for a grey world, but punished for being unable to live up to it all the same. anyway, that's what she told pinocchio, when she saw how everyone was angry at him for lying and misbehaving instead of listening to him when he explained why he had to. all of them were wrong and he was right.
because she knows all too well that sometimes the elders you're supposed to listen to just fail you. anyway, have a memory.]
he may have just been wondering a moment ago what tough kinds of things she might have gone through, but he wasn't expecting anything on that level... though the feelings that came with it certainly weren't entirely foreign to him either. being hurt and sad and furious all at the same time, wishing you could save something precious that's been taken away and wanting to burn it to the ground when you can't. ]
Ylfa...
[ he wonders if her psych felt like as bad of a joke to her as his did to him. ]
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Date: 2023-07-11 01:09 pm (UTC)[she doesn't know exactly what happened, but she can tell simon must have done something that made all of the adults very angry. it reminds her of a few different things. of all of the stories she knows where children are punished and taught a lesson for the crime of not following the rules made by adults who could never have comprehended the things they'd have to deal with. she's seen a memory a little like this before, and she says what she said then.]
...You were right. You were right to lie, and to run away. They didn't know what they were talking about and they couldn't keep you safe, so you were right.
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Date: 2023-07-12 04:04 pm (UTC)there's never been any doubt in his mind that running away was the right choice — almost certainly the only choice that would have let him live to see another year — so he's never needed anyone else's validation for it, but.
he doesn't mind hearing it, either. ]
I... um.
[ she gets a sort of half-smile from him. ]
Thanks. I think so too.
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Date: 2023-07-12 10:47 pm (UTC)because she knows all too well that sometimes the elders you're supposed to listen to just fail you. anyway, have a memory.]
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Date: 2023-07-13 08:31 pm (UTC)he may have just been wondering a moment ago what tough kinds of things she might have gone through, but he wasn't expecting anything on that level... though the feelings that came with it certainly weren't entirely foreign to him either. being hurt and sad and furious all at the same time, wishing you could save something precious that's been taken away and wanting to burn it to the ground when you can't. ]
Ylfa...
[ he wonders if her psych felt like as bad of a joke to her as his did to him. ]
I'm sorry. That... that really sucked.
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Date: 2023-07-14 12:02 pm (UTC)it's a bad memory and she's sorry he had to see it.]
...You don't have to be sorry. I mean, it was worse for them than for me.
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Date: 2023-07-14 12:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-07-14 01:06 pm (UTC)[that logic doesn't seem to hold up that much to her!]
Anyway, I'm not like that anymore. I'm better at controlling it now.
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Date: 2023-07-14 02:02 pm (UTC)Well, that's good... it seems like it'd be really scary not knowing when something like that could happen.
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Date: 2023-07-14 02:04 pm (UTC)[this is a mg don't just tell people your weaknesses.]