Okay, those things were a misunderstanding! I cut your head off and then I had to cover up the ax wounds by chopping you up a bit but I still wanted you to look nice!
[gets too indignant about being called a serial killer to be awkward.]
Oh. Well, I'm not the boss of you, but I would probably mind a little. I mean, I think it's sort of messed up that everyone is acting like I was doing this for such good reasons, but we didn't even know about any of that, back when I killed you. I just did it to win.
So I can't really regret it, but I also don't want to act like it's fine.
I was more annoyed that people actually thought someone like Simon could kill me and that you didn't think to cover it up until after I was dead.
[ the clown is so weak, physically. ]
I'm not here to call you noble or whatever people are labeling how much blood is on your team's hands, but it was necessary to you, wasn't it? To win. That's fine. To save people or to save yourself and a few others isn't a horrible reason to kill someone even if that person happens to be me.
[ she's just too used to killing and being killed, and ylfa's reason was levels above the reason she heard from libby, so comparatively, it's fine. ]
I would have killed you for the same reason.
[ she can be a hypocrite, but she won't be one for that. ]
[that's why she wasn't allowed to come along for fei du... too sloppy... ]
Yeah. I mean, sorry if this is rude to say to you, but I don't regret doing it. I just feel weird about acting like there was some other reason for it. [...] Well, if I regret anything, it's that - at the time, I was thinking of it like, the most fair thing is to kill the people who are thinking about this competition the same way I am, as a competition, and to leave the people who don't want to participate out of it.
But then the rules changed, and in retrospect, I really wish you'd still been around! The people who didn't believe killing would be necessary started to drive me a little nuts!
[and was ready to have a nice conversation but then he was being kind of a dingus.]
It's fine. He can be mad at me, it's fair! But I'm not going to just let someone hurt me. I don't think it's actually physically possible for me to do that, my fight or flight is just fight. And there was basically never any way he could have killed you or me without getting very creative about it. So it's mainly not dangerous, it's just a guy being mad, and that's fine.
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week 7, monday
Date: 2023-08-01 01:57 am (UTC)Hey, Miss Murderer. Having a nice Monday?
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Date: 2023-08-01 02:04 am (UTC)I'm having a good Monday thanks to Wenzhou, yes. [...] Long time no see...
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Date: 2023-08-01 03:15 am (UTC)Are you feeling awkward seeing me? I heard you did some things to my corpse.
[ lambda doesn't seem too mad about it for now. ]
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Date: 2023-08-01 03:18 am (UTC)[gets too indignant about being called a serial killer to be awkward.]
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Date: 2023-08-01 03:23 am (UTC)this is a bit outside of what lambda expected. ]
It kind of gives mixed messages, but congratulations anyway. I don't mind anymore.
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Date: 2023-08-01 03:33 am (UTC)Oh. Well, I'm not the boss of you, but I would probably mind a little. I mean, I think it's sort of messed up that everyone is acting like I was doing this for such good reasons, but we didn't even know about any of that, back when I killed you. I just did it to win.
So I can't really regret it, but I also don't want to act like it's fine.
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Date: 2023-08-01 04:17 am (UTC)[ the clown is so weak, physically. ]
I'm not here to call you noble or whatever people are labeling how much blood is on your team's hands, but it was necessary to you, wasn't it? To win. That's fine. To save people or to save yourself and a few others isn't a horrible reason to kill someone even if that person happens to be me.
[ she's just too used to killing and being killed, and ylfa's reason was levels above the reason she heard from libby, so comparatively, it's fine. ]
I would have killed you for the same reason.
[ she can be a hypocrite, but she won't be one for that. ]
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Date: 2023-08-01 12:15 pm (UTC)[that's why she wasn't allowed to come along for fei du... too sloppy... ]
Yeah. I mean, sorry if this is rude to say to you, but I don't regret doing it. I just feel weird about acting like there was some other reason for it. [...] Well, if I regret anything, it's that - at the time, I was thinking of it like, the most fair thing is to kill the people who are thinking about this competition the same way I am, as a competition, and to leave the people who don't want to participate out of it.
But then the rules changed, and in retrospect, I really wish you'd still been around! The people who didn't believe killing would be necessary started to drive me a little nuts!
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Date: 2023-08-02 01:16 am (UTC)[ the last few weeks have had such a body count, so lambda is thinking, they would languish and do nothing for their survival or anyone else's. ]
I won't fault you for how you wanted to play the game, Ylfa. At least you were trying to.
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Date: 2023-08-02 02:26 am (UTC)[she kind of agrees with that thought, really.]
...Thanks. You are kind of unbelievably cool, actually.
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Date: 2023-08-02 02:48 am (UTC)I'm only telling you what I think. It wasn't for your gratitude.
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Date: 2023-08-02 12:32 pm (UTC)Me too. I'm only telling you what I think, it's not for your gratitude.
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Date: 2023-08-04 04:47 am (UTC)[ it's amusing to think about, though. ]
Your opinions are your own, and it's better that way. [ ... ] It's going to be Simon who's less fine with you than I am, but you can take him.
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Date: 2023-08-04 12:09 pm (UTC)[and was ready to have a nice conversation but then he was being kind of a dingus.]
It's fine. He can be mad at me, it's fair! But I'm not going to just let someone hurt me. I don't think it's actually physically possible for me to do that, my fight or flight is just fight. And there was basically never any way he could have killed you or me without getting very creative about it. So it's mainly not dangerous, it's just a guy being mad, and that's fine.
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Date: 2023-08-04 03:49 pm (UTC)[ lambda doesn't actually dislike simon and doesn't think his anger is unjustified, but she does think ylfa is being mature about it. ]