You're not the only big bad lion around this place. It's not a bunch of scared, innocent people with nice, gentle stories and then you. When you talk, the other ones are listening, too, and the things you say about yourself you're also saying about them.
[ when she comes to sit by him, she can notice that his little egg is giving off some temperature. it's cold, but it feels like it's starting to warm up a little. emotionally, that numb void feels a little...
...awkward, almost. like he's trying to come to terms with feeling in the first place, fumbling around this entire situation. ]
I'm used to being around the worst of humanity. [ people who are cruel, people who are monstrous in the way that humans specifically make monsters - people who are selfish and fueled by greed, people who like to control others. it's a dog eat dog world in the upper echelons of yan city, in the lowest parts of its criminal core, and fei du's seen it all. ] Maybe too used to it.
[ it's a point blank answer. his emotions solidify back into that void, but there's something that strikes through it - something bitter and angry. ]
Rich, powerful people who will stop at nothing to get everything they want, and crush every obstacle in their way, no matter if the cost is currency or blood. They are the root of every single problem in the place that I live, one way or another, and it's all based in selfish, cruel, greed and power. The kind of people who would strike to eliminate an entire team in one go, in order to further their ambitions.
[ the kind of person that fei du was pretending to be. the kind of person he's always had to pretend to be. ]
But most of the people I've met, even the ones I think are really pretty bad, aren't exactly that way. They're all always scared of things more powerful than them... they've decided that their way is the way they're going to survive that.
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Date: 2023-07-02 01:28 pm (UTC)You're not the only big bad lion around this place. It's not a bunch of scared, innocent people with nice, gentle stories and then you. When you talk, the other ones are listening, too, and the things you say about yourself you're also saying about them.
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Date: 2023-07-02 01:58 pm (UTC)...awkward, almost. like he's trying to come to terms with feeling in the first place, fumbling around this entire situation. ]
I'm used to being around the worst of humanity. [ people who are cruel, people who are monstrous in the way that humans specifically make monsters - people who are selfish and fueled by greed, people who like to control others. it's a dog eat dog world in the upper echelons of yan city, in the lowest parts of its criminal core, and fei du's seen it all. ] Maybe too used to it.
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Date: 2023-07-02 09:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-07-03 02:55 pm (UTC)[ it's a point blank answer. his emotions solidify back into that void, but there's something that strikes through it - something bitter and angry. ]
Rich, powerful people who will stop at nothing to get everything they want, and crush every obstacle in their way, no matter if the cost is currency or blood. They are the root of every single problem in the place that I live, one way or another, and it's all based in selfish, cruel, greed and power. The kind of people who would strike to eliminate an entire team in one go, in order to further their ambitions.
[ the kind of person that fei du was pretending to be. the kind of person he's always had to pretend to be. ]
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Date: 2023-07-03 02:59 pm (UTC)But most of the people I've met, even the ones I think are really pretty bad, aren't exactly that way. They're all always scared of things more powerful than them... they've decided that their way is the way they're going to survive that.
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Date: 2023-07-03 03:10 pm (UTC)there's another ripple of his emotions, again - that bitter, miserable anger that twists hard, before it's sucked back into nothingness. ]
Yes. [ ... ] I've noticed that, too.