I do hate to be boring, but I hate to be wrong even more. Better to proceed with caution, here. I think it's potentially something all of us need to start thinking about; and it would be a good start to try and determine a bit more about our points system, somehow. If we're able to, at least.
you can ask the reapers sometimes theyll say things to you one on one sometimes even if they say they cant tell you if you ask specific enough questions they can
Yes, though I don't think that was the only reason. It may have also been because she was scared, or because she wanted to share the reasoning - I think it was a combination of all three of those things.
But I chose to help her where I could. That was my decision.
No, the other two were surprised. But I knew. Wenzhou chewed me out about it afterwards.
What surprised me was that she confessed, when the guilty vote went through. I don't think it should have, looking back, now. But, I'd hoped to keep it secret, like Rang had, and that it would be me in the execution. I hoped I could stop what happened from happening.
we showed him that message because we wanted him to keep fighting but it made him really sad and a bad vibes shark was attracted to his bad vibes and killed him
Ylfa... I think he had a lot of reasons to have bad vibes - not just your message. He was extremely upset when he talked to me, too. And I'm sure near everyone else.
The, ah. Bad vibes could have been accelerated, but, I think they were unstoppable.
or rang lee ugh but its messy because buzen and matsui wanted to give all of us a chance before they took theirs i think matsui was kind of he didnt want to have to hurt anybody anymore that was the most important thing to him so when he found out about his world he
all it meant is he died feeling like hed have to give up that important thing
its so weird i was so sure it was most fair to let everyone read those messages and give them a chance to decide to fight for themselves because it feels like so many people are in denial and just want to believe there will be a happy ending no matter what but maybe some people arent ready to wake up from that
I'm not sure even now if it was better or worse. I find myself thinking about what it would've been like, if he did survive. Would that kind of existence be too painful? Someone told me once that it's better to die if you can't be free. For what it's worth. I just wish he'd had a choice in the matter, but this place puts a strain on choice and agency both.
As for the chance to fight, and denial - they say ignorance is bliss. I can't live that way. I'm glad I knew about it. I'd rather have the chance to choose.
But even that has a chain reaction. If someone does decide to fight, then it might determine victims. Why not pick off me, or you, or Vash? Or any of the others - because our worlds wouldn't be destroyed on impact? And that has its own set of consequences, too. It might come with the destruction of a different kind of world entirely, something more personal or emotional.
Ultimately, everyone just has to make the decisions they feel like they can live with, and whatever consequences they recognize or don't recognize, they have to live with those too.
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Date: 2023-07-10 12:40 am (UTC)Better to proceed with caution, here.
I think it's potentially something all of us need to start thinking about; and it would be a good start to try and determine a bit more about our points system, somehow.
If we're able to, at least.
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Date: 2023-07-10 12:41 am (UTC)sometimes theyll say things to you one on one
sometimes even if they say they cant tell you
if you ask specific enough questions they can
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Date: 2023-07-10 12:51 am (UTC)Thank you, darling.
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Date: 2023-07-10 01:03 am (UTC)when did you find out about libby?
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Date: 2023-07-10 01:10 am (UTC)I was the only one who learned that early.
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Date: 2023-07-10 01:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-07-10 01:31 am (UTC)It may have also been because she was scared, or because she wanted to share the reasoning - I think it was a combination of all three of those things.
But I chose to help her where I could. That was my decision.
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Date: 2023-07-10 01:45 am (UTC)im not judging you
actually id kind of judge you if you hadnt helped her when she asked
i was just curious about it
it seemed like you guys were surprised by it at the time
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Date: 2023-07-10 01:51 am (UTC)No, the other two were surprised.
But I knew. Wenzhou chewed me out about it afterwards.
What surprised me was that she confessed, when the guilty vote went through.
I don't think it should have, looking back, now.
But, I'd hoped to keep it secret, like Rang had, and that it would be me in the execution.
I hoped I could stop what happened from happening.
[ the whole BDSM total erasure thing. ]
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Date: 2023-07-10 02:02 am (UTC)or matsui?
because matsui died because of me
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Date: 2023-07-10 02:24 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-07-10 02:34 am (UTC)because we wanted him to keep fighting
but it made him really sad
and a bad vibes shark was attracted to his bad vibes and killed him
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Date: 2023-07-10 02:48 am (UTC)Ylfa...
I think he had a lot of reasons to have bad vibes - not just your message.
He was extremely upset when he talked to me, too.
And I'm sure near everyone else.
The, ah. Bad vibes could have been accelerated, but, I think they were unstoppable.
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Date: 2023-07-10 02:59 am (UTC)i just think
i know he was going to die
but i didnt want him to
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Date: 2023-07-10 03:00 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-07-10 11:58 am (UTC)ugh
but its messy
because buzen and matsui wanted to give all of us a chance before they took theirs
i think matsui was kind of
he didnt want to have to hurt anybody anymore
that was the most important thing to him
so when he found out about his world he
all it meant is he died feeling like hed have to give up that important thing
its so weird
i was so sure it was most fair to let everyone read those messages and give them a chance to decide to fight for themselves
because it feels like so many people are in denial
and just want to believe there will be a happy ending no matter what
but maybe some people arent ready to wake up from that
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Date: 2023-07-10 03:57 pm (UTC)I think so, too.
On all counts.
I'm not sure even now if it was better or worse.
I find myself thinking about what it would've been like, if he did survive.
Would that kind of existence be too painful?
Someone told me once that it's better to die if you can't be free.
For what it's worth. I just wish he'd had a choice in the matter, but this place puts a strain on choice and agency both.
As for the chance to fight, and denial - they say ignorance is bliss.
I can't live that way. I'm glad I knew about it.
I'd rather have the chance to choose.
But even that has a chain reaction. If someone does decide to fight, then it might determine victims.
Why not pick off me, or you, or Vash? Or any of the others - because our worlds wouldn't be destroyed on impact?
And that has its own set of consequences, too.
It might come with the destruction of a different kind of world entirely, something more personal or emotional.
Ultimately, everyone just has to make the decisions they feel like they can live with, and whatever consequences they recognize or don't recognize, they have to live with those too.